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[affectioning]

My mom had a girlfriend in college. And Isaac likes me. And older me said he's been with women and other men. And I told Isaac to go for it with Allison and that I didn't like him like that.

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[studmuffin]

okay??? if u dont like isaac like thta then whats the problem??

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[studmuffin]

unless u do and ur pretending u don't

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[affectioning]

I'm not pretending anything. I thought there was something maybe and then I didn't feel it. I care about him. But, I don't really like him? He doesn't affect me like Allison does? Does that make sense?

[affectioning]

At movie night the three of us were sitting really close together. And I got a boner.

[affectioning]

But, I thought that was Allison. And then Isaac got one. But, boners happen. And we had fun that one day. A lot of fun. And I know I could tell he liked me? But, I couldn't? You know how slow I am about these things. But, I've never thought about Isaac that way.

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[affectioning]

Do you think I'm pretending?

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[studmuffin]

dude, i don't know?

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[studmuffin]

how do u kno u dont like him like that?

[affectioning]

When you think of Derek, do you get a boner? You want to have sex with Derek right? And do all this other stuff. It might be all you think about. That's what it was like with Allison. I wanted to be around her and help her and save her and love her. All day. But, I don't think about Isaac like that.

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[studmuffin]

yes and no?

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[studmuffin]

sometimes i wanna climb him like a tree? and then there are days when i dnt think about it at all. i just want him 2 b around? to talk to me? it's not just sex - though that would be nice i dnt wnna jinx it - it's more.

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[affectioning]

It bothered me when Isaac and I were weird here. And I felt kind of like I'd lost when Isaac came back and still went with Derek. You remember how angry he was? Or maybe you don't know but he was really angry with Derek. But, then he was angry with me for going with Deucalian and abandoning him. And knowing that I caused that.

[affectioning]

I'm still worried about him. And sorry. And I want to see him and make him feel better. And hang out more now but he'll probably want to hang out less. I like Isaac as a friend. A really close friend who I'd give my life for that I want to be happy. Whether it's with Allison or...

[studmuffin]

so u can say hand on heart that u dont want 2 b with isaac?

[affectioning]

No? I thought so. But, I know feelings are more than just boners. I don't know. No, I can't say hand on heart that I wouldn't want to be with Isaac.

[studmuffin]

so theres a possibility?

[affectioning]

With Allison, there was never a question. How do you know?

[studmuffin]

u cnt base evrything on how it was with allison? derek was no way near @ how i felt abt lydia?

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[affectioning]

[ going into his room to close the door and call the bff ]

Maybe I like him? I mean I know I like him. I like Isaac. I love him. [ He stops talking. ] Of course I love him. But, I love you, too. And you and I do that fake flirting thing that Isaac and I did. But, it wasn't fake? From his end. Was it from mine? And I told him to try it with Allison? And I still like Allison. We hooked up. [ He drops back down on his bed. Flopping back. ] Sorry. You can talk now.

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[studmuffin]

[ Stiles listens, and he holds back the half a billion slightly sighing noises he might make because he can't stop making sound. ]

But I know you're not serious, Scott. Because we've been doing that for years. If Isaac doesn't know it's a joke then it's not a joke? For him. And if that's what happened then you're gonna have to realise you accidentally led him on? Not that you meant to, but that's a douche move.

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[affectioning]

[ No, not what he wants to hear though it is how it sounds. ]

But, I don't know if I did. I could like him. My mom wasn't even surprised when Isaac did that on the network. She thought I liked him back already. What if me liking him came out differently than when I liked Allison. [ God, Scott, we established this, they're different. He pauses for an absurd, grounded statement. Because he needs to stop foaming at the mouth. ] Lydia told me to date them both. [ A beat. ] But, she also said you can date someone to see if something's there. And even if I want to see, I told him there wasn't. And pushed him into Allison's arms and now he's not talking to anyone. Isaac never puts himself out there. He finally does and I do this? I couldn't think about it? Or say something else?

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[studmuffin]

He's pretty cut up about it.

[ Because Stiles lives with Isaac, he's seeing the aftermath. And he gets both sides, he does. Scott never really means any harm. But like he said, Isaac put himself out there. ]

Seriously, he hasn't even spoken to Allison since. There's been no running or pushing or whatever, he's just stayed in his room. I tried talking to him but he's not having it. [ A pause. ] I don't know, Scott. Maybe you should talk to him? Tell him that you're this confused? He was trying to sort out his thoughts - maybe you should too.

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[affectioning]

[ He bets. He's not proud of any of this and he feels horrible. He never wants to bring this out in Isaac. Never. ]

Yeah. At least if he locked me out I could just break the lock. And buy him another... Not that I'd break down the door. It's all a mess, Stiles.

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[studmuffin]

Want me to get Derek out of the house?

[ Because having him glare at everyone would probably suck. ]